There is always a reason!

Do you want to know why I don't post that often - ok - let me rephrase... Do you want to know why I only post once a year.. :) - Because I keep forgetting my damn login details!!!!  I'm surprised I remember my kids birth dates man!

There is just so much going on and so much has changed in my life since November last year!!  I resigned from my job - but I'm still working there - but as a contractor - so yay for more flexibility - little less yay for job security - but because that's not really what I need from a job - I'm totally fine with how it is!

WE BOUGHT A HOUSE!!! and almost as exciting I DISCOVERED PINTEREST! So many divine decor ideas!  We got a 100% bond - so super duper excited, we can paint and renovate my Old Victorian Beauty!  YES - VICTORIAN - Two fire places, bay window, long wide passage, wooden floors... LOVE IT!  We've rented for 7 years!!  I like to call them the 7 lean years - hoping that from November this year the fat kicks in (obviously not on me!) - The fat years!!

So anyway, since this blog is titled MOTHERHOOD (loving the CAPITALS tonight ha ha)...  I thought I would just share with you the following few facts I've discovered in the last year about motherhood:

1.  Children are THE most selfish creatures
2.  Love truly is UNCONDITIONAL when you're a mom - because - no matter how crap they were to you during the day, you will always go and check that they are covered up at night before you go to bed.  Some nights I walk in there mumbling under my breath - "I should just leave you uncovered you little brat"  but find myself going over to their beds, pulling the blankets up higher and kissing them. (then walking out feeling so bad  that I could even think that!!)
3.  No matter what role I take on, whether it be wife, employee (contractor), sister, daughter or friend, there is one role that I will always have - till the day I die... MOTHER

THE UNCONDITIONAL MOTHER!  This is the mother who loves when she's feeling hurt, who fixes things when she's feeling sick.  The one who makes a plan and keeps her kids tummies full, this is the mother who puts herself second (most of the time), so her children can have.

I have to encourage all the moms out there this Women's Day - You are probably all way better than I am at doing this very intense job - but I'm sure that you have the odd day when you feel like a failure (I have the odd day when I feel like I did something right!).. On those days remember this.. YOU ARE AN UNCONDITIONAL MOTHER - i.e. HAVE CHILD - WILL BE A MOM.

I have to believe that most people are good by nature, so most moms want to be good moms.  Just the desire you have to be a good mom (even if you feel you suck at it) is something to hold onto!  You will wake up in the middle of the night to see to your child (or employ a night nurse to do it for you).  You will make sure your kids are fed and clothed before you do (or open multiple accounts - so everyone wins).  HA HA - I'm rambling

The point is:  the words MOM AND UNCONDITIONAL LOVE mean the SAME

I may not be a great one, but I sure am trying!  TO MOMS!! Ching Ching!

So... I won some money!!!

So - I did, I won some money and because my husband's away (which is a whole other post on it's own), I'm getting stuck into the house, because when the kids go to bed, what else is there to do?  Drink Wine and Paint of course!! :)  So I went shopping -  a quick shop at Mr Price with three kids under 7, before church - thankfully our church starts at 10 - late sleeper?  Check it out - e-mail me, I'll give you directions!! :)


So, in 45 minutes I managed to put 2 cushions, 1 wire heart hook thingie, a tray, oven gloves, 3 picture frames and 3 toys to appease the kids into my trolley and R600 later walked out of the shop and off to church we went, gave an offering and wallah - R700 spent.  But - and here it is the big But - I realised, because I work at Volpes and get a staff discount - why did I spend R200 on two cushions? for my lounge that that currently boasts 10 cushions on 4 couches...  so after some contemplation and a cuppa after the service, we speedily went to the bigger and better Mr Price, where I returned what I'd bought 2 hours previously and walked out with... the tray, the oven gloves and a heart chalk board for my kitchen... I spent the whole night dreaming about what I was going to buy and I walked away with a tray, oven gloves and a heart chalk board???

This after I was planning to get some good looking ornamenty type things for my lounge and diningroom.  Anyway... I didn't -  I have the money in my wallet and when next I get a "gap" if that's what you want to call it - Me an my three kids (I know that was grammatically incorrect - it was done on purpose!) - will go and look and see what we can find to make my lounge and diningroom look totally wreck appealing to the kids! I had my lampstand broken in half today - thanks to the boy - FLIPSAKES - Boys are something else!!! LOVE HIM - but flipsakes - IS HE BUSY!!  He climbs on anything and everything, he jumps and romps and totally just wrestles his way through life!!

Talking about wrestling - mom is now the designated wrestler with Bobby away - oh you don't know about that hey - well he's been gone since about the 25th of October - I will probably see him on the last weekend of November and then he goes again until the 22 December - he's away for work - got a lovely contract, which makes it worth it!  But Flip do we miss him!!!   and another !!!!!!

So I've re-done my kitchen and re-arranged my lounge (with no ornaments!!! - yet).  I have had a few days of being sick so on those nights I kissed the kids goodnight and switched off the lights and jumped into bed myself - thankfully I'm feeling a bit better - was a bit concerned that I may be pregnant again - can you imagine! 4 Babies!!??? yoh!

So in the next few nights I'm painting door frames, tv cabinet, beds, bookcases and blogging a bit in between too (how cools is that alliteration!?)

But for now - in order for me to stop rambling - I'm going to try (for the 3rd time) to finish watching Eat Pray Love

Chat soon - I guarantee it :) 

Pink Nails & Filter Coffee

So, after being reminded by a fellow co-worker today about my blog, well not really a fellow co-worker because he's a manager and well I'm a... I'm a marketer - an online marketer - for my new job at Volpes!! How cool is that, I got a job at a company that started in 1929 - that's around 82 years ago... I think - did I get the maths right?

Anyway, after a lunch time chat, I realised that I haven't blogged for ages and now I realise that I think I've started a lot of my posts with - something about how long it's been since I've blogged ha ha ha

Oh well - call me the in between blogger!

My nails are pink - yay for mom-in-laws who visit the UK and bring me back really nice pressies! The coolest part about these pink nails is that I actually have nails - I haven't bitten my nails in about 2 or 3 months - how good! so proud of myself - so hoping to be a good example to little Carly - so she's not sucking her fingers anymore - after a couple of days of me wrapping her fingers with tape so she couldn't suck them - we finally broke the habit - now to just get her to stock biting her nails - so let's hope moms beautiful pink nails encourage her!

So they're all on holiday and I miss them terribly - but I really am enjoying the break - working really is a break for me. There is order, a chain of command, rules that we all obey - mostly and there are adults - lots and lots of adults!! YAY!! What a nice thing to be surrounded by people who don't want to play puzzles and draw and play hide and seek all day.

So I started there on 1 July - day one... instant coffee and a very afrikaans radio station in the background, day two - instant coffee and headphones, day three - headphones and filter coffee and a one cup bodum - ha ha - I'm such a coffee snob! and a music snob too - sorry but I can't even speak the language, must I really listen to the language to a tune all day - I think not!! ha ha

I was getting some photos and stuff together this morning to take with to work to stick on my wall and after accumulating all my piccies of my gorgeous babies, I piled them together and put them back where they came from - I just couldn't bring myself to take all my personal pictures to work - I'm blogging about how private I actually am ha ha - what a joke - but seriously I don't know what it was - I just couldn't do it!

Anyway - I'm now a proper working mom - I don't see my babies the whole day - no lunch time pick ups, nothing - and after despising the idea for so many years - I must confess I'm really enjoying it - really!!

Leila's taking strain a little - she phones me a million times a day to ask me what she should do, or tell me how her sister is irritating her or how she is missing me - shame I hope she gets used to the idea soon - but my lovely new nanny is such a GodSend - I just hope Leila takes Carly and Jethro's lead and learns to love her!

Now me and my beautiful long pink nails are going to sleep, got to get up for work tomorrow - got lots to do!! Looking forward to it - but before I do that I need to think up a couple of creative things for the kids to do tomorrow - think I may mix some powder paint up for them - although my maid my just quit if I leave her alone with a 7, 5 and 2 year old with a couple of jars of paint....

I think I'll sleep on it!
:)
PS - haven't done a spell check or re-read what I've typed - so sorry for any errors - don't feel like checking - my blog - my prerogitive <<< good spelling hey ha ha ha

facebook

I have like 700 odd friends on facebook which is cool except its 700 unsuspecting old friends, new friends and some friends who I don't really know that end up getting all my posts all the time, so basically that's a potential of 700 people getting peed off with me - so yay blogging from my cellphone, that won't necessarily show up on everyones newsfeed...

Tonight I'm in bed watching heroes - I'm so addicted - love the show - wish I was a super hero!!! Had some wine - nice and now cozy in bed with no threat of one eyed snakes bothering me hee hee - husband's asleep on the couch!

My daughter (the 7 year old) made biscuits today - All on her own, we've packaged them and she's selling them for R5 a bag - 3 biscuits in a bag and don't bother asking for a discount for a bulk purchase - not gonna happen!! In fact she convinced her little sistter (the 4 year old) to clean their room - they share - she first said shed give her sister biscuits at half price if she cleans it up - luckily dad stepped in and little carls got 3 biscuits for her efforts - absolutely free ha ha

My big girls is an entrepreneur and my four old is soooo neat - I can't believe how well she cleaned their room - sooo very impressed - except now I know what she's capable of and this seems like a lovely combo for me, leila can make the money, carly can clean the place and I can be a coo girl and have coffee all day? Ha ha - as if

Anyway, my phones light is flashing but not from a message - battery flat...

Yay for mobile blogging

The unsupermom is going mobile awesome!!

Dark Chocolate and Red Wine

What a rare occasion I'm experiencing right this second.  Red wine, dark chocolate, quiet, warm, peaceful, Bruno Mars playing quietly in the background.  I could easily use this moment to just be me,  not a wife or a mother, not a sister or a daughter, just me... but who would I be without my husband, children, siblings and parents?  I can't seem to separate all those roles, I am all of those all of the time, along with friend, student, consumer - consumer... that I was today to a great extent - I went and bought school clothes for my girls, they start GR 0 and GR 1 next year... wow RRRRR!!!!

But more then the RRR, my little girls are growing up.  My babies, my chalk and cheese, they're no longer my girls (in a collective sense) they are such little individuals, who just keep growing and growing.  Leila looked so special in her little Collegiate dress today, she loooved how she looked too, she's such a little lady, with her quirks and particular ways, she's responsible and so smart, intense and deep.  My Carly - still sucking her fingers and fiddling with whatever she can find, is also growing up, she's so wonderfully loving and friendly, so confident and amazing.  It's too much, I'm so sad and happy at the same time.  I'm also so hoping that I do an Ok job and that they turn out happy, secure, popular, intelligent and most important girls with solid character who understand what is actually important in life. 

I should feel happy that they're growing up and needing me less = less demanding, but I'm not, I'm so not, I don't know what I'm going to do with these kids of mine all growing up, next year, my first mini empty next (mornings only) - all my babies - at school - geez I can waffle hey - I'm really just typing what I'm thinking....

Talking about thinking, I keep saying the wrong words, I hope I don't have some sort of neurological problem, it's weird!! 

Everything has to have a point in life, right?  My point - I don't know, I'm sad my kids are growing up.

Now I'm going to get some more chocolate, because I still have some wine left... yummy

This week

So I'm over the desperate desire to have another child.... yay - I think??!!

The girls are sharing a room again and Jethro is back in his own room,  after Carly begged me to sleep in Leila's room on a mattress on the floor, I asked them if they'd like to share again (after about 3 nights of being separated) and they both squealed YEEEESSS!!!

So all is back to normal on that side of things, except Carly has been such a cry baby the last week or so, I wonder if separating the girls had anything to do with it.  Don't know what it is with her, she's 4 and a half and all of a sudden is crying and moaning and sad and it's just weird, she's never been like this before... will have to keep an eye on her and give her lots of extra snuggles!!

Got my exam tomorrow, crammed in all I can cram in the last 2/3 days - hopefully it will be enough.

Next year all three kids will be at school (Playschool, Pre-Primary & Primary School) Big year for them all - AND ME!!  But at least I'll have some good quality time to get through my 8 modules that I'm going to try to do next year and maybe fit in some work and housecleaning too, oh and not forgetting the jiu jitsu lunch time rolls!!

Anyway, got to go now - fetching kids from school, then prob have to deal with a few squabbles, give them some lunch and try and get a bit more studying done, while they veg in front of the tv - told you I'm an UNsuper mom!! :)

I Suppose I should add some pictures of the treasures of my heart...

 My Gorgeous Girls and my Handsome Boy

 

All Watching TV, so cute

 

My Sweet Princesses!